Pregnancy Week 33 Plan

Oh what a week last week was. So many things have happened. I got my citizenship, I’m so proud. I’ll be honest though, I took full advantage of being pregnant. Hee hee. I made my way to the front of the line, and it’s okay. I mean, nobody has to know I lift in the mornings, right? In all seriousness though, the ceremony is really awesome but incredibly long. Security lines are huge – just that day 3,985 people became citizens, that’s a lot of people, so you can imagine the amount of people. Being pregnant at the ceremony had other advantages as well, like they didn’t take my drink and snack (they took my husband’s drink away…). This was long overdue, and I couldn’t be happier.

Sophie again had a one day fever, Thursday night she went up all the way 102.7 – her fever goes up really high in a really short amount of time… So she skipped preschool on Friday – but at least I got to sleep in with her. Of course, she was totally fine on Friday, check this picture out and you’ll know what I’m talking about. 😉

My overall state of being can be characterized as tired and frustrated, overall. I still wake up at 4:45am to read (right now I’m reading The Power of I Am by Joel Osteen), then I work out, morning prep, take Sophie to preschool, work at home, pick Sophie up, spend time with her, make dinner, have dinner, walk the dogs (on better days, it hasn’t been happening as much as it should lately), evening prep then bed time. The days are long, but productive. And I’m not frustrated with anyone in particular, just in general. Which I think it’s worse, actually. But it is what it is, other than being aware of it and controlling it that way, there’s not much else I can do about it. Did you feel like this during your pregnancy? 

I had a friend  come over and help me sort baby clothes this weekend, it’s crazy how much we have saved, what’s even crazier is how much of what is not salvageable I actually kept. Did you keep your old baby clothes?

But on to this week: I’m 33 weeks pregnant!!! I’m definitely feeling it, I’m sore, have more belly ache and pressure, baby girl is definitely putting mommy to the test. I’m excited to meet her but of course, for now, she needs to stay in there where it’s safe for her. I’m worried a tiny bit though, about how mornings and evenings are going to be, how we’ll manage two amazing girls with both of them getting love and attention. I know, I know…. These things resolve on their own, but the truth is, both will get less love in a way. 

Last week our meals were good and I got all my workouts in – took Friday off but used Saturday as my makeup day. Mornings are the best, it’s all downhill from there, haha.

With that, this weeks plans are:

Until next week, stay active, eat well, and be happy. 🙂 

I Feel Like I’m Prepping for the Biggest Challenge of My Life

I feel like I’m prepping for the biggest challenge of my life…

…is exactly what I told my husband this morning as I asked him to help with brushing Sophie’s teeth. Which sounds like a normal request except that Sophie was having none of it.

You see, before you become a parent, you have ideas of how parenting is going to be and should be. One the biggest things I was against pre-Sophie times was bed sharing. I remember reading in forums how parents were sharing their beds with their toddlers, telling my husband how that was not okay, because the bedroom is ours. The bed is ours. It’s there for us to sleep in but more importantly, be intimate in. To love each other. No child should be there.

But then life happened. Sophie was always a good sleeper, but when she wasn’t, and we would be tired, we let her sleep with us. 

This is a pretty early picture, and it’s just one of those mornings, but soon enough, she was sleeping between us. 

We have transitioned her into her own bed now, but she does wake up in the middle of the night and comes to sleep between us. She’s three-and-a-half.

You might ask… well, if you’re into attachment parenting, you might ask what’s wrong with it. If you’re not, you might ask what’s wrong with us. 😛 Either way…. my answer is there is absolutely nothing wrong with this. She needs us, and we are there for her.

But that’s where the problem comes in. She needs us, we are there for her, but she only wants me. When I’m around, 90% of the time my husband can’t do anything with/for her. She won’t allow him brush her teeth, like this morning. Or change her. Or just be there with her. My husband is doing everything. He is a tremendous help, really truly. But Sophie doesn’t accept it. I know, it’s normal for her to be attached to her mom.

But as the birth of our second daughter is approaching, I wonder how it’s all going to be. How I will give the attention to Sophie she so desires, needs and should get, while taking care of the new baby, myself, my husband, the household… I know things fall into place. Eventually they do, and I know this struggle is not unique to me and our family. I guess I just don’t feel ready. Do we ever for the unknown though?